It’s not even November yet but all my weekends are booked full for the month!…starting with this coming weekend in NYC to hang out with a girlfriend, see a photo exhibition, attend a birthday bash, and feast at a Sunday brunch. Next comes a weekend in Belleport, Long Island, with friends and their one year old baby girl. Then a trip to Newport, Rhode Island, for a special birthday treat for me ; ), followed by a weekend in Albany, New York, to see my mother’s new house. Then I think it’ll be Thanksgiving and my niece’s fifth birthday, and we’re already on the brink of December.
In between, I’m tasked with renting my apartment, selling my car, packing up my furniture and belongings, moving it all into storage and moving myself somewhere temporarily until January 15th, preparing and packing for Uz, changing my address on everything, and spending as much time with my family as I can.
Emotionally, I continue to struggle with the mental preparations of living in a new world, one where I have been advised to show up late to drinking functions, learn to throw vodka shots behind my back without getting noticed, and know how and when to give bribes to local officials, bus drivers, and to whoever can ensure my safe journey. Closer to home, I have been blessed with a marriage proposal I don’t know what to do with given the impending distance that will be placed between us. How do two people stay together in such uncertain circumstances? How do I fit another person into such an insane way of living? Yet, how can I live without the security and luxury of love along the lonely roads I take? And why is all of this happening to me NOW?!
I feel like I’m trying to swallow two life-times in one big gulp! Hopefully, I’ll be able to chase all of it down with a healthy dose of happiness.