Having turned down an invitation to go into NYC tonight for the annual Halloween Parade, I am savoring quiet time on my own. Just me, Chinese take-out, the Da Vinci Code, Tazo Calm Herbal Infusion, and a bag of Snickers bars for the costumed revelers. Over the past week, Rich and I have been back in our routine of daily calls and nightly home cooked meals. It feels better to question all of the uncertainties together, and letting the answers surface willingly.
At least I am sleeping again. Playing catch-up has been strange. I just fall asleep all the time. A fuzzy, languid numbness envelops me and I just have to lie down and sleep. Then a few hours after waking, I’ll fall asleep again for the entire night. I can’t seem to satiate the two month deficit.
My mind has also finally turned off. I feel as if it has reached maximum capacity to consider, question, plan, or explore. The fervor of recent months has given way to preference for mindless entertainment and mundane conversations. But knowing me, it won’t be long before I’m back in the spin of preoccupation.