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Lampageu, Aceh - Indonesia, December 2006

The location of these pictures is one of the hardest hit spots around the city of Banda Aceh.  Tiny rises of city buildings lie behind the distant palm trees and my imagination conjures up scenes of the 100 foot wave crashing down onto the coast, flooding the city and carrying the villages that would have once been in these photos out to sea.  I see this scene every time I visit this village where we train women to weave rattan as an income generation activity.

Along my drive out to other project sites, I often marvel at the beautiful scenery around me and think, "And this is work?"  The pristine beaches, aqua blue ocean, swelling waves and sparkling sand against a backdrop of tropical forest where the locals claim to spot tigers.  The Western or sometimes referred to as Southern (confusion due to its South/West orientation) coastline is rugged.  Surf is always up and the beaches ladened with shells - a surfer's and beach comber's paradise.  I'm grateful to experience the purity but selfishly hope it never succumbs to the ravages of tourism.  This euphoria over working in paradise lasts a pleasurable two minutes as my daydream fades into reality...

The stony footprints of crushed houses peaking through the underbrush of beach bushes, the dead trunks of coconut trees snapped in half, the rows of temporary shelter barracks, and the scattered boxy, cement houses built by NGO's  all remind me that this place is not exactly paradise lost, but rather devastation found.

2007

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Evidence of 2004 tsunami lingers on 2 years later.  Gle Jong,  Aceh-Indonesia

2006 was not a big blog year for this wanderlust despite yet another travel-filled year.  Nevermind because this blogger hasn't been too worried that her content no longer has the allure of  adventurous tales but has rather turned into a dull (yet colorful) on-line itinerary for her family and friends to follow so they know she's alive enough to turn on her computer wherever she may be...

...at least not until I saw that my dear friend Arabesque has dubbed me as, "Wanderlustress - saving the world one community at at time"!!!  Sure, I might deserve such accolades but does my blog warrant it?!?...not any more.  And here's why:

My brief exposure to the world of humanitarian aid has made me a cynic, not sure of who I'm actually helping, and even more unsure of whether we're doing it right if we are indeed genuinely trying to serve our beneficiaries.  Both the Sudan and this assignment in Aceh has so far felt more like I'm "saving development programs one office at a time".  Having been trained (literally arse kicked) by the corporate world, I miss the professionalism, efficiency and accountability (to name a few essentials missing from my (I'll repeat) brief, and narrow experience in the running of an international NGO).  This is the reason for a vacuous blog and oh so many therapeutic getaways...my time is completely taken up by filling a management vacuum (aka doing some arse kicking myself), the frustrations of which require me to extricate myself from the mere thought of work at the end of each day if I am to maintain a healthy, sane social life and marriage...easier said than done by a work addicted perfectionist.

And what I actually do have to say about my work, the needs of the 2004 tsunami effected community, the Indonesian culture and my daily life travails may be prematurely and wrongly portrayed with hints of cynicism that I dare not write at all.  So call me a coward blogger...Its ok, I've felt this way before after getting burned by Peace Corps for blogging about Andijon in May 2005.  Nearly got myself kicked out just because I was one of the few voices heard and sought after in a little place where the whole world decided to briefly turn its attention.  I have not been comfortable with editorial responsibility since.

But perhaps I take myself too seriously as an aid worker and a blogger, or I'm actually a lazy blog sloth, or a jaded wanderlust finding little in the world worthy of my time and interest...

I'm staying tuned myself to see what 2007 will bring!

Happy New Year Everybody!